What is Real

I started this blog as more of a personal journal. I was entering a somewhat unique period in my life. A time of transition, a significant transition. These periods which we all have in ones life must be met with a lot of intense prayer. As I have said in previous posts our vulnerability issssss at its most powerful and its most exposed. Whether one wants t accept this or not this is essentially a good thing. If we allow the small whisper of God to be heard it will and can carry us farther than any place we could have thought of. So many distractions, untruths, outright lies and darkness can make hearing that whisper so very hard.

The political season is both a distraction and a necessity. The economic model dominates our life far beyond any utility. Whether we want it or like it we must demand some responsibility on how we spend our money, how we guard our freedom and how we care for this artifical entity called a country. Darkness now reigns more than it e; ver has. The balance of power is at its lowest. The vacancy of spirit is at its highest. What is real? Whenever I ask myself this question in the deepest parts of my consciousness I hear an asnwer I AM. “Come to me all who are weary and heavy of heart. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light”….g

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The Return

I have been away from writing since December. I have noticed a few new comments which is interesting. I am on a journey and have found it more mysterious than ever. I started the journey when I left a line of work I had been doing for over twenty years. I had invested years of psychic energy believing in something and in essence lying to myself. We discover much about ourselves through what we do and what happens based on our actions. I was an idealist for many years. A service driven person who dreamt of achievement. Very ego driven stuff that does not amount to pile of crap in the end. Through prayer and trial I have gained some insight. For those of us who profess to be in the Kingdom of God we must continually discover what that means and what it is to live in it daily, every moment. It is not what we do, it is who we are. The great spiritual teachers have tried to help us define who we are for millenia. Jesus continually taught us we are love, compassion, charity, service, forgiveness, mercy. We are not fear, anxiety, violence, deceit, death. The Jesuits teach us that power, fame and riches are not part of Jesus’ kingdom. I am learning that every day on a deeply personal level. My Catholic upbringing has taught me that God’s Grace not only created us but its continually giving and sustains us. God holds us together every moment of every day. As I move into a new phase of my life my cooperation with his grace, my seeking Him always and my trusting in Him is more important than anything my small mind could create.

I am now moving into teaching which I have done part time for a few years. Peace comes with this move. Accepting peace and not pain is a choice. It is always about choice. What God and his Son (and His Spirit) have always taught is that He will help us with those choices. We just have to ask…..g

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Mitt, Newt and the Future

A couple of months ago I started to write about Newt. At that time I felt he was articulate, seasoned and possibly the best opponent to defeat the Anointed One. The chase after power, fame and riches is a carnivorous one. There are some values, some virtues, some realities we cannot sacrifice. The sub-text of this blog is Truth, Beauty, Goodness. These are timeless realities that reflect the transcendent. Epoch battles have been fought for millennium. Different faces and times can obscure what is really happening but the battle is still the same. I believe our life, our lives, come from a Creator. This Creator gives and sustains that life. We owe it to him to play our part. There is a B movie I have seen many times called The Prophesy starring Christopher Walken and Elias Koteas. The story is essentially that Gabriel has started a second war in heaven . He has betrayed God and has divided the angels. It’s entertaining and utterly fictitious. There is a memorable line at the end that the Koteas’ character utters. “We are not here to know the mysterious plan of God. We just need to know our part in it”. We can only know it with God’s guidance and grace. We must be satisfied with that. Beyond this is all ego.

This year will decide part of that. America is an interesting country with a singularly interesting history. Its proponents celebrate it. It opponents castigate it and want it changed. America’s critics want to feel good, bring “fairness” to all and believe in the oppressor/oppressed paradigm. The current occupant of the White House also believes this. This paradigm is a dangerous one. It impacts truth, freedom and above all life. Why? Because it puts man at the center and ignores God. This is beyond religious polemics.  It is also contradictory to human nature. Not to sound too trite but Socialism does not work. Those who think socialism and big government can deliver “fairness” are being lied to. They will give up personal freedom to attain this proposed ideal. Once you give up your freedom it is difficult, if not impossible to get it back.God gave us freedom. He does not want us to give it up.

Presidential elections are not only about the candidate but about the philosophy they bring and the people they will bring in to enforce that philosophy. The question each of us must ask is who of the people aspiring to be President reflects and will work to sustain what we believe is essential to our lives now and in the future. I have grown very cynical about politics. I really haven’t changed my feelings on this. But I cannot ignore the historical nexus we are in. I ask myself daily can we survive the changes we already have seen and will see again, unbridled, if the current power sharers stay in power. Or is there a way to stop this or slow it down. If you believe, yes then Vote, if not then ignore the present at your own danger. It is about choice.

So of the two viable candidates who do you like. I actually, overall, like Santorum. This is a good and decent man who embraces God and life.  But he does not know the rigors of power. Romney has shown he does. I like Newt also but he appears to lack the wiliness of Romney. Any of the three will be better than the Anointed One. I live in California. My vote as far as the electoral college goes is a waste. But for the sake of my soul I need to say NO to the aggression that we are experiencing. The naked grab for power is beyond anything I have witnessed in my lifetime. This is beyond politics. It is still about power, fame and riches. This is the year for all of us to make a choice. …g

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Changes and Stress

Experiencing change on a frequent or even continuous basis can and often does produce a lot if stress. Recently, my wife and I witnessed our son getting married. This is a watershed moment in anyone’s life. Watching our son experience each of the moments those of us that are married experienced reminded us of the sacred journey that starts on that day. I was particularly impressed with his history of friendships. Three of his closest friends from high school (15 years later) were part of this. It was easy to see how their friendship has grown and matured. What was most unique from our experience was the reality that we did not have any strategically active part in the process.

What does this all have to do with stress. It revealed the contradictions in our  lives. Where one part of my life is in a transformative change with a lot of stress we saw another change with stress but also with joy, hope and life. The emerging changes coming with marriage and children not only affect the newly married couple but of us. Parents continue to experience the stresses of change. What is impressive is the accumulated knowledge or insight that age brings. Surviving change with insight and growth is something we must all continue to work at and embrace always….g

 

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Our Base Nature

One of the few benefits of accumulating years of living is the possibility of wisdom. Wiisdom comes only from honest insight. Knowing yourself is a lifelong mandate proposed and supported by great thnkers across history. I cannot recall much of what Socrates wrote or spoke but a lasting remnant is “know thyself”. Jesus did not say those words exactly but he often advised or encouraged all to look within. The Kingdom of Heaven is within is a lasting note of wisdom that Christian writers of all traditions have spent years orating and scribing about.

One of the most impactful insights I have begun to understand is the awareness of our base nature. In other posts I have posted about the concept of the false self. This is essentially the experiential self. A self that responds to our ego-centricity, our personality quirks and our deepest personal flaws. Most of our flaws are derived from our upbringing. Whether we were abused, neglected or a combination of both we all have some deep wounds. If we tend to be more intuitive, more sensitive then the intenseness of those factors can cause more flaws. If we seek distraction or releif from our psychic pain through addictive behaviors we only complicate our lives.Knowing our base nature and willfully choosing not to respond to it can lead all of us out of the darkness we all carry. My base nature tends to lead to extremes. On one extreme is anger and on the other weakness. The one thing both do is to keep me away from the center where vulnerability and utlimately truth lives. More on this later…..g

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Perserverence

When transitioning from one place in life to another the virtue of perseverance emerges as far more important and powerful that initially thought of. A successful transition out of a bad or toxic place is a good thing for me personally and can be for anyone in a position where darkness prevailed. Concretely, this is a difficult challenge as the world is unforgiving when leaving anywhere. It is very unforgiving financially. But underneath the concrete lies the real darkness. The fear, the anxiety and the doubt. Interesting enough Romans 5 has something to say about this: “tribulation produces, perseverance, and perseverance, character and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint for God has poured out the holy spirit (and grace)” The question is what are we to persevere in? God wants us to preserver in our trust in Him. Our base nature would indicate perservering through our tribulations. Not giving up, quitting. There is another passage in the bible that speaks to this. It is Timothy 3 ”  if you remain faithful to God, God will remain faithful to you. If you are not faithful God will remain faithful.”  It really is all up to us. God is there for us always. The all important insight that a professing Christian and particularly a Catholic must embrace is Hope. God represents hope and most intensely in Christ….g

 

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Newt as Threat

The latest Freddie Mac issue with Newt is typical of what is to come. As he rises in the polls and emerges as a true conservative rival to Romney the MSM will relentlessly attack him. They already resent him as he will not fall into line and play the good puppy. He has lectured several of them in an almost embracing degree. They and the rest cannot compete with his range and depth of understanding of the issues we are challenged with and his articulateness in discussing them. This is a visionary guy with all the pieces needed to beat the Anointed One. A ticket with him and Romney or Romney and him ought to be scaring the you know what out of the reigning emperor …g

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Creatvity in the Real World

I have thought a lot about creativity lately. As created beings we all have a spark of the Creator in us. some of us have an abundance of creativity. so much so that we cannot control the need and desire to express. These are the souls who write, paint, play an instrument sing. I often think of the late Dan Fogelberg. He had a modest upbringing but from an early age he new he had to create music. He possessed a high degree of talent in multiple areas. He could write songs, write music, sing and play several instruments. He touched a lot of people and his death in 2007 at age 56 still stings with most of us. My wife still cannot play his music. The memory still hurts. Another person of significant talent who just passed was Steve Jobs. Completely different creativity but equal in his insatiable drive to create and to hear something different. Why do we all not have that drive? This plagues me to this day. I have a frustrated creative impulse. My wife does too. Creativity gives an almost transcendent meaning to life. Fogelberg and Jobs and many others are and were not driven by money. The money they earned gave them the latitude and luxury to commit most of their life to their creativity. Am I jealous of these two men? In some way, yes. But more they inspire me to continue to look for that venue to express whatever creativity I have. I am not sure I am musing on lifelong frustrations or am finally finding an invaluable insight. worth exploring, for all of us…..g

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Newt

Presidential politics is at its best a gamble for fools. I have seen in my lifetime a horror show of self professed leaders. Most were marginally competent. All were consumate politicians. Leaders are a completely different breed. I have followed Gingrich for several years. I have read at least three of his books. This is a seriously articulate and well informed candidate. He is a true academic and a conservative.As he rises in the polls (and he will) he will be merclessly attacked by the media. They will focus on the personal as his past is fodder for smearing. He has a level of self assurance and insight to understand the issues confronting us in far broader terms than any of the other candidates. He is several levels ahead of the Annointed One. To not put him in some level of national leadership would be the biggest mistake we will make for our future.I would suggest everyone actually read his analyses and proposals. Only a deaf idealogue would dismiss him. We as a country and a society are at a crossroads. If we close our eyes to defined leadership and succomb to empty rhetoric and class warfare the America we all know will cease to exist. ….g

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Vulnerability part II

Knowing who you are is quite the challenge.Avoiding the extremes and remaining in the unknown is critical. Feeling good at any point in this process needs to be handled with a lot of caution. Do you feel good because your ego has been stroked or because the distraction you have just experienced was soothing? it’s usually always short lasting or false. more later…g

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